Well, this is the week! We find out this week if Duane gets into UT Southwestern's PA (Physician Assistant) school. It has been a long 4 months, but through lots of prayer, I know if this door is meant to open.. it will!
The last few months have been a roller coaster for me. Ever since Duane's interview in September we have been patiently waiting to get a phone call, email, letter... just something!! We knew they would accept a couple of students right after the interview, some would get rejections, and the rest... well... they would have to wait until January. Duane was one of the lucky ones who got to wait until January. For the first month after the interview he checked the mail religiously... praying there wouldn't be a rejection letter. I knew he was nervous... Heck, I was even more so! It never came, so we continued to hope.
I thought January would take forever to get here. Once January 1st hit, I felt the nerves and anxiousness start creeping on me. I would find myself laying in bed at night thinking "It's January... Duane finds out this month..." From there I would begin to think of all the possibilities- What if he gets in? Will we sale the house? Do I live with my parents? Will we get him an apartment? Do we rent out the house? Will I ever see him? What if he meets some hot girl PA student and forgets us? The list went on and my anxiousness got worse... However, every night at the end of my anxious thoughts, I found myself in prayer. One night while I was driving home from grocery shopping I was praying about PA school and that if this is the right door, God would open it. Anxiousness started setting in again, and God spoke to me and said, "I've already given you a peace about this, quit trying to have control. It's all going to work out!" I smiled and continually remind myself on a daily basis of this.
God gave me a peace months ago after Duane interviewed. Why do I constantly want to disregard that peace, worry and try to find some sort of control in the situation? Faith allows me to hand it over to God because He's in control... not me. 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
Duane applied to four different PA schools last April- Galveston, San Antonio, UNT in Fort Worth, and UT Southwestern in Dallas. He got two rejections from Galveston & San Antonio, and the interview to UT Southwestern. I questioned him a couple of weeks ago about UNT and if he had heard anything. I found it odd that he hadn't received a letter, phone call, rejection... nothing. He casually stated that he thought he might be in their last interview group. Sure enough- UNT called him last week and offered him an interview for the 25th of this month. I'm not quiet sure what relief this gave him, but for me... it was huge. I was thankful to not have to hinge everything on UT Southwestern... he has another chance if for some reason Southwestern doesn't work out. I find myself secretly hoping both will offer him spots and he will choose UNT... even thought I know Southwestern is a better PA school. UNT is closer, and I find so much comfort in that. However, Southwestern starts sooner and finishes quicker... so I find some comfort in that as well.
Even as I sit here typing this, I find myself getting anxious and trying to plan these next few years. When in reality- who knows what the future holds for us? All I can do is turn it over, pray for direction, peace, and obedience to how HE wants to use us.. I know God's got this!
