Today was long...

Week 5- I'm missing my husband today a little more than usual.... It's amazing the little things you take for granted with your husband. Like dealing with air conditioners when they decide to go out..  killing the giant bug that snuck through the front door... Or taking out the smelly trash that made you want to vomit when you first walked in the house... Disciplining one son when they smart-mouthed you at dinner... Disciplining both sons when they scratched the crap out of each other for no apparent reason...  checking the car when it screws up, then taking it in to the shop because you don't like to, because you feel no one at car shops take you seriously... Then at the end of the night when you are trying your best to be patient getting both boys asleep, telling them to be quiet multiple times, then the oldest begins sobbing because he misses his daddy... so everyone just cries together because we all miss him... Yep- that all happened today.

So, call me a little whiny- but I don't care...  I'm tired and I miss him.  I miss the little things that I took for granted on a daily basis that never seemed like that big of a deal when he was here every night... now that he's not, those little things are what I miss the most. I'm not trying to have a pity party, so please don't misunderstand.. okay, maybe I am a little bit ;)... but really... it's amazing how your perspective changes when you are in a situation that really gives you no other option, but to change it.

Okay, now I'm done whining and am going to re-frame my day, because you should always practice what you preach! ;)  Yes, my car screwed up this morning and didn't want to shift gears... but the bright side is we didn't have an accident, my babies are safe, and we have insurance to get it fixed including providing a rental car, so we are not without transportation... It could be worse.
Yes, our air conditioner is broken in our other home that we are renting out... but we have home warranty insurance for that, so luckily it will not cost a fortune to get it fixed!
Yes, my house smelled terrible when we walked in and there was a ginormous bug waiting to greet us... but fortunately I have two legs that work, so I was able to take the trash out myself, then stomp on the ginormous bug and kill it!
Disciplining the children is something Duane and I have always kind of played tag-team with... today I just couldn't tag him in... that's okay though- I think I'm getting really good with the mom-look and voice :).
Yes, putting the boys to sleep tonight was kind of a beating, but I have two, beautiful, healthy, rambunctious, loving boys, who make my days full of love and life... and for that, I am very thankful.  I am also truly thankful for facetime on our phones, because with that tonight, I think my babies had a little more peace before falling asleep.

Duane started week 5 today.. he's killin it at school!  I am so incredibly proud of him!  Duane- if you read this... please know we love you and support you 100%... today was just a tough day! I know you aced your Anatomy test!
Only 125 more weeks to go~ :)

"Don't give up and be helpless in times of trouble." Proverbs 24:10
We will keep pushing through, because great things are yet to come!

Kickin off Week 3

Starting week 3... it was a little harder telling him bye this evening. I was doing okay, until I went out on the porch looking for Makson and there he was holding on to his daddy.  My eyes swelled up, because I know I miss him during the week, but his boys him just as much.  Lets face it- I'm not as much fun as daddy.  :)  He's got a long week this week.. He starts his phlebotomy lab in the morning at 6 am... He will work 6-8, then have class 9-4 all week... I can imagine he will be exhausted come Friday!

I'm up.. of course... watching the Notebook.. torturing myself I suppose.  I took a 2 1/2 hour nap today, so I'm sure I will be up for awhile.  I sit here thinking, questioning myself, my job, my purpose.. I suppose Duane starting school, not being here every night, has thrown my world a little off.. Not to mention I'm wrapping up my first year as a high school counselor.  I have scheduling to finish up tomorrow, master scheduling to begin, baccalaureate on Thursday, graduation Friday, and Lisa's lingerie and bachelorette party Saturday!!  whew! I'm tired just thinking about it...
I've truly enjoyed this school year and the challenges it has thrown at me, but I would be lying if I said I'm not grateful it is coming to an end.  I'm exhausted...

I really don't have much more to blog about and would hate to waste your time with rambling!  Keep us both in your prayers for continued strength for both of us! This week is going to be a tough one with me not having my complete "village" here to lean on!

"What I am saying is that we can encourage each other by the faith that is ours." Romans 1:12